Tempo and Trust

I sat down to expand on an idea that came up in conversation on my podcast today: the relationship of time and trust. And I got stuck. Stuck on a silent obstacle, a quiet logjam of thoughts – great raw material, but no flow. I rolled up my sleeves took a big sip of chai and got prepared for the fight.

I thought I was going to sit down and write a post about the relationship of time and trust, but I’m sitting here in this coffee shop doing the wi-fi nomad thing and I’m completely distracted by the music. I’m trying to unstuck this mental logjam and all I’ve got in my head is this music, this insistent energy keeping my logic all a-jumble.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m diggin’ the music, not hating on it. I don’t know who is picking the tracks, but they’ve got a serious acid jazz groove going on this afternoon with some deep Hammond B3 organ action and it’s got me in great place, but it’s the totally wrong groove for a heady round of intellectualizing and theorizing and such.

I’m in a mood to just be.

I can’t fight the draw to listen, much as I’m trying to spin the threads of a cogent argument together, and now I’m realizing, that I don’t want to fight this. Why should I? That sax is tasty, those guitar licks are nibbling at my psyche over a mellow feel and a full-as-a-fountain sound is coming from that organ. A sound somewhere between the wet metal plunk of a xylophone and the warm hum of electric clippers. Two wrongs making a right-on. Why should I fight it? Why can’t I just be? Spend a little be-me time listening and letting the rhythm drive the typing, letting the words wash up on me like the chords washing over my spine.

I can do this. I can write and I don’t have to fight for the words. I can feel and let the feel find it’s own damn path through me and cuddle up here as words on a screen.

The screen is cold, but the thought is warm and there is a pocket of flow that I know won’t last, already I can feel the slip, the self-conscious, but if I can breath and relax I might just get down one more note, I mean word, a phrase. No coda, just a rest.

And return.

It’s good to be.

Share
This entry was posted in art, blogging, commentary, mad scribblings and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Post a comment or leave a trackback: Trackback URL.


Warning: Use of undefined constant thematic_postcomment_text - assumed 'thematic_postcomment_text' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /homepages/38/d219234922/htdocs/wordpress/wp-content/themes/buddymatic/library/extensions/comments-extensions.php on line 97

Warning: Use of undefined constant thematic_postreply_text - assumed 'thematic_postreply_text' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /homepages/38/d219234922/htdocs/wordpress/wp-content/themes/buddymatic/library/extensions/comments-extensions.php on line 104
Post a Comment

Your email is never published nor shared. Required fields are marked *

*
*

You may use these HTML tags and attributes: <a href="" title=""> <abbr title=""> <acronym title=""> <b> <blockquote cite=""> <cite> <code> <del datetime=""> <em> <i> <q cite=""> <s> <strike> <strong>

  • Doodle Delivery – Subscribe!

    Subscribe to occasionally brighten your inbox with a bundle of doodles wrapped in a few thoughtful thoughts on being a beacon in this crazy-wonderful world.
  • Search

  • Left Brain + Right Brain = My Blog

    This blog is chock full of joyful drawings and a few musings on personal branding, startups, creativity and being a beacon.

    Featured Posts


     
  • The Be A Beacon Show

  • Send a Free eCard

    If the drawings on this website give you a smile why not share one? I added a free ecard system so you can send "doodlegrams" to anyone you'd like. Go ahead, send a smile! Just click on the words eCard (free) below any doodle on the blog .
     
  • Categories

  •  

  • Archives

  •  

    Caitlín Mowbray"I adore your doodles... I swear looking at those bunnies lowers my blood pressure, calms my mind and makes me smarter. Who needs meditation when there are bunnies?"
    ~Caitlín Mowbray - Meditation Teacher, Astrologer and Soul Provocateur

    Find David on Bloggers.com